For the first time in what seems like ages I am sitting in my house completely alone. I forget just how important it is for me to have a bit of time every day completely to myself. Of course, this solitude also gives me the reality check that I should get some things checked off my to do list. No more holiday chore avoidance.
I was going to begin talking about how I'm not sure where this blog is going...will I continue to write here. But honestly, I just don't know. I have a feeling it will progress much like everything else in my life. I will keep writing until one day I stop. I'm not one to mull. All this being said, this is the year that I no longer put any expectations on this space. If I don't write for weeks, so be it.
I was thinking about resolutions though. It is difficult to begin a new year without pondering a fresh start. These are the resolutions that continue to pop into my head. I thought I'd share them with you.
- Say yes before I say no - I'm the regulator in this house. Mine is the voice of reason who often has to point out the harsh truths. The reality check. But sometimes I think it becomes more of a habit. I reflexively look for the reason why we can't do something. This year I am going to try saying yes to things before I fall back on the motherly reality check and see where that takes us.
- Reply with a smile- sometimes as the girls are getting ready for school it occurs to me that I haven't smiled once that morning. I think smiles really can have a drastic impact on mood, so I'm going to make an effort to smile as often as possible when talking. Or any time really. I wonder what will happen to my responses and attitude when a smile leads the way?
- Be the best at what I do - and what I am is a housewife. Oh, i can call it a stay at home mom or say I'm a photographer ( both of which are true), but the reality is that I do not bring in income for our family. I am a housewife and see no reason to justify that title further, because it is a hard job. But I could do better. Much like an office job, I'd like to enact a quarterly performance review where I take a look at how I am managing our household. I would like to get honest feedback from both David and the girls. How I could improve, what changes could be made in our routine. David works so incredibly hard for us that I would like to show that I take my job as seriously as he does his.
Three things. Say yes, smile, and do my best. Kind of sounds like a kindergarten mantra, but then I have long thought that we could learn a lot from the structure of a kindergarten class. If I can put my head on pillow every night and be proud of my day I will be a happy woman indeed!